I’m back. About to start my third round of chemo and turn 40. Woohoo.
Yesterday was somewhat of a bummer day unexpectedly. My chemo was pushed back a week after I accidentally took too much and so Mom and I took advantage of a week of me feeling good. We spend a couple days in NYC. Chihuly at the Botanical Gardens then the Guggenheim. Unfortunately, I couldn’t handle the Guggenheim. It was too overwhelming for me. I couldn’t look at the artwork to the right and walk around to the left because I can’t see to the left. It was a little easier once we went all the way to the top and came down because I could just hold onto the railing with my right hand and look to the left, but it really reminded me of the visual deficit and I was bummed that I couldn’t enjoy the museum. I think it was the first time I really got upset about some ability that I’ve lost. Bummer for sure.
I also learned that sitting in a car driving around the city was extremely difficult for me. I got really anxious. There was just so much going on all around me and I can’t process it all and it was not fun for me at all. Also a bummer. It is just way too easy for me to get overwhelmed by things that are very busy and that are unusual or out of the ordinary for me. I suspect a combination of the eyes and the slowed cognitive processing.
My eyes do continue to amuse me though. The other day I thought that people were saying Einstein was exposed as a sexual predator. My thought was, Really?!? Then I realized I didn’t see the W because it was all the way to the left and in my blind spot. Einstein is still good as far as I know.